so, yeahs. posting on my phone 'cause i can't sleep. nothing much happening in my life. been thinking about a lot of stuff lately, like my life. i'm disappointed. i miss the past ; my old self, now buried underneath multiple faces and false smiles. and on top of that, everyone is drifting further away. i'm so sick of it. i'm going to die sooner rather than later, at this rate. & i'm starting to feel this uneasiness when i talk to you. i feel like i'm talking to a distant stranger. why do i feel like i'm losing you all over again, when i already did? my memories of you, my 'love' for you are just like sand slipping through my fingers. and to my surprise, i feel nothing, no remorse or regret. why?