Hi , been almost a year or so since i last blogged here .

during that time , many things have changed .
finally started tertiary education at ____________ . (english deproving by the minute)
currently struggling a bit but trying to get the hang of it .

met lots of new friends , lost a few ...

hopped from relationship to relationship ...
currently attached to my beloved Jane , :) 12th's .

stopped playing audi , currently playing maple and blackshot(omg downgrade)

gonna be overseas during late aug ~ early oct , hope nothing bad happens while im away.

email is still the same old one , the really long and weird email from naruto .

number's the same , so is facebook .

however , i myself have changed a lot . (good or bad thing, idk . neutral?)

ever since that day ,
i'm scared that history would repeat itself .
i cant trust people so readily anymore . (even with Jane)
now, i use fake smiles more often than i ever have in my whole life .

im still scarred by your words, they keep replaying in my head
fuck , i dont even know whether you would even read this ...
but .

im sorry , even if this apology cant take away all the scars i left you with
even if you cant accept my apology ....
even if you dont want to see my face ever again , even if you dont even wanna talk to me anymore ...
please , be happy , and take care of yourself .

to see you like this , its more than i can take .

Labels: Revival